the last day of 2009

what a great day ;p HAHAHHA.
tahun ini banyak banget kejadian yang ngebuat gua seneng, sedih, campur" dehh ;)
rencannya tahun baru ini gua mau BBQ am zsa", ryan, andi , steven dkk .
bersama tante" dan om" guaaa nungguin old and new (:
hope everythings will be better tonight.
beberapa hari ini banyak banget kejadian yang uda terjadi dalam hidup gua .
some of them change my opinion to let it go,
perlu banyak yang gua bantuin, gw posting lagi tahun depan *wkakaka*



bye 2009 welcome 2010 ;p :
if you doesn't have enough time to fix all bad things you already done this year it's okay, because you have a lot time to make everything better next year *happy new year* ;D

life :D

gua baru sadar ada satu hal yang dibangun seseorang itu susah payah,
tapi dengan beberapa perbuatan dan perkataan kecil yang salah .
bisa menghancurkan semua itu, lo mau tau itu apa ? "kepercayaan"
lo bangun itu susah payah, lo need to be honest and nice to build it
but in one little lied you can destroyed all that .
all, that .
one thing again, " hope "
kita, bangun harapan itu dengan banyak perasaan khawatir .
tapi, dengan berbagai alasan tiba" harapan hancur, and make us more afraid to hoping again.
kepercayaan dan harapan itu hampir mirip dan berhubungan
dibangun dengan susah payah, tapi bisa hancur dengan berbagai hal kecil.
kalo kita udah gk pernah dikasih kepercayaan itu lagi, kita gk bakal berani berharap lagi.
kadang" gua mikir sebenernya kalo kita sampae gk berani berharap lagi berarti kita,
sampe pada titik yang gk bakal maju lagi.
karena sampe kapanpun yang kita butuh itu harapan, karena apapun hasilnya berani berharap itu intinya .
karena berani berharap itu tindakan yang harus kita pikir" berulang ulang kali.
because, all type of human don't want to get fall in the same mistake again.


sometimes, think about life it's the most complicated things ever :)

take it or leave it !

HAHAHHA, today not a good day .
but better laa, wanna go to church this evening .
hope there's some miracle happened, :)
still want to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2 haha
maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow hahax


a.l ; you make it the day more worst huh

jangan kau lepas - alexa

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh..
Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh..
Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi
[Reff:]
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ho..ho..ho..ho..

n.a ; the best song ever :)

christmas day- 10.46 AM

hey love, kalo gua bisa ketemu elo uda gua bunuh gua cincang" WKAKAKAK
me? am i in love ? hahaha
maybe, should i maintain this feel or just eliminate until nothing again ?
ckckck, wrong boy again and again
tapi kata gaby ; " experience is the best teacher "
iya kali yaa, if i want get the best of the best i need to pass this all :D
hahhaa, kalo gua bisa i want i can read your mind .
mind reader wannaabee wkakakak ;p
ckckck, this christmas day what i should hope ?
hoping? should i ? hahha
maybe like what i ussualy said "seberjalannya waktu aja :D"
hahhaha, ribet banget akhir" ini gua yaa hahahha
mau liburan liburan liburannnnn
mau ke puncak tapi gk tahan MACETNYA itu lohhhhh ckckck
new yearr ada yang punya rencanaa gua ikutt dong dong dong :D

christmas day

here i am with a box of ice cream sit in front of my computer
waiting some miracle on chrismas day ♥
waakakkaka, iya tdak mengerjakan apapun sumpaaa parah parah wkakka
kemarenn gua pergi ke gereja nahh pas misa ada anak 3 orang (tauu dahh anak siapa ;p)
berissiikk banget larii sana larii siniii hahhaha
ehh tiba" mereka melihat ke arah tempat air suci dan mereka mendekat
anak 1 ; ihh airr (kek gk perna liat aer aja ==" )
anak 2 ; ihhhh jangan" kata mamaku gk bole gk bole ( sambil mundur" )
anak 3 ; aihhh, dingin aernya hahaha (dikudek" dahh tuh aer sucii)
beberapa mata orang tua yang duduk didepan melihat kejadia itu tapi gk ngapa" in
anak 1 ; oh iyaa (sambil terus dikudek" )
anak 3 ; jangan jangan kata mamaku gk bolehh
dengan pendirian nya yang kuat akhirnya dia pergi ninggalin kedua temennya yang lagi asik" nya kudek" air suci =.=

ckckkc, ternyata coba lu liat anak kecil aja pendirian nya kuat kalo kata mamanya gk bole dia pecaya banget sama mamanya .
boro" gua wkakaka, nyokap gua bilang A pasti gua bilang B hahahha
god give me a lot of gift this year :D
i hope next year will more fun ♥

christmas gift :D

okey, i can control my emotion now :D
i thought what i thinking about life is not "fair" its wrong .
i can breath until now, i have a complete family :)
i have a good friends, ohhh all that i have is from YOU .
iya, semua dari tuhan dan gua gk bersyukur .
tuhan enngak perna kasih cobaan melebihi kekuatan anak" nya ( i believe that )
this chrismas just a little messy then last chrismas and i complain like my whole life is crash by something bad .
thanks god for " everything you give to me "
i love all them , my family,friends thats all make me complete :)

a.l ;
HAHAHAHAH, whatever he do i trying not to much care :D

life is never "fair" !

iya hidup enngak perna adil , huaaaaaaaaaa
tepar gini, banyak pikiran liburan macam apa ini ? mending gk usa ad libur aj sekaliannnnnnnn nyesel ada libur nyesel, kalo liburan gua dihabiskan buat mikirin orang yang ergghh, buat mikirin nilai gua yang tiba" anjlok . SUMPEK GUA ! depresi !!
semua ini liburan yang palinggggggggggg menyebalkan ever !!
aaaaa, ditambah ujian mikirin nyokap, bokap APA GK ADA YA yang laen yang bisa gua pikirin yang membuat gau senang dan bahagia ?! wth banget si ?? kenapa ada orang yang well, gua gk tau tapi i can be like that ? but in my life NEVER ever be same like that happy sucks ! yes, of course sucks and yucks !! aarrrgghhhhhhhh
GUA BUTUH BUKU ! NOVEL APA AJA DEH !!
tapi gua, gua gk punya dan sekarang depresi marah" gk jelas !!
GUA BUTUH PERGI, PERGI YANG JAUH DARI RUTINITAS GUA PERGII YANG JAUH DARI ORANG" YANG NGEBUAT GUA STRESS`
pergiiii, dari jakarta !!!
belom lagi masala tugas ada tugas b.indonesia gua yang belom selese
tugas trip BANDARA YANG YUCKS !! UJIAN NEGARA !!
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, ya sepertinya hidup gua tahun ini penuh dengan cobaan .
i just found a one miracle, yes i have a perfect friends .
natasya akiko yukimachi, gabriela gracia , verena tanzil
but DURING THE HOLIDAY i cant often see them !!
HOW CAN ?! MY SUCKS LIFE IM IN A HIGH LEVEL OF DEPRESION NOW !
kalo lu mau tau apa yang mau gua lakuin sekarang ; gua mau gua bakar semua rumah mall , kantor pemerintahan gua injek" semua orang yang ganggu jalan guaaaaaaaaa .
gua berubah jadi besar dan tak terkalahkan ! thats done !!
gua, keliling duniaaaa sendirian gk ada yang bisa berentiin gua , kadang" gua berfikir imajinasi gua berlebihan but !! god hell, gua butuh sesuatu aja i HOPE THERE'S A MIRACLE HAPPEN IN MY LIFE THIS CHRISTMAS !
but, nothing yang gua dapet HIDUP GUA MALAH TAMBAH HANCUR BERANTAKAN !!
mungkin sebagian karena salah gua, gua uda jarang berdoa mungking kata" nyokap gua bener gua uda jauhh dari TUHAN.
gua menyesali itu sangat sangat menyesal ;((
DEAR GOD, CAN YOU FORGIVE WHAT I ALREADY DONE ? and help me make this life more easy?
hm, make like old time .
i miss that moment, no mad no cry just laugh and a smile .
i miss my old holiday even though ending with some cry, but its a beautiful gift .
i love your gift last holiday to me god.
want you give me a gift this holiday ?
i try to fixed this condition, injured my self but i can't do that without a power of you god .
i need your help T.T

AVATAR ! :D

gilaaaaaaa, keren banget ituu film ahahahhaah`
lebih keren dari 2012 jauh jauh jauhhh HAHAHAHAHAH
sangat" inmajinatiff bangett semuannya ;)
yesterday, with zsa" come to purimall to met tasya and eko .
walking arround the mall wait eko then watched film goddd` it was so great !
the story is unpredicteble ! sooo great !!
u need to watch !! must !!! HAHAHH

so-so life ;)

HAHHAA, okay i already get my report from school and i get a sixth rank ! thanks for god sake ! ;)
and then spend a 3 first day in my holiday at zsa" house .
so, i came home now!
then get appointment with zsa",tasya and eko to watch avatarr`
okey at all i thought it was a good film ! i hope too :)

huahhhhhh, hope tomorrow will be a perfect day ! ♥

yesterday, 12-12-09

iyaa, hari selesai ujian ! yey HAHAHH
selesai ujiannn ke apart tasyaa dluuuuu, ngongkow" akaka
abis ituu jalan" ke puriiii ketawa" gk jelass hooho
truss ketemu eko, nonton dehh .
selese malemmmm, ckck hahahaa.
abis ituuu pulanggg badann guaaaaaa aa==" sakitt ! rada" angett dikit lahh`
moga" besok ke BANDARA bisa lebihh menghibur ! ahhahah (;

a.L ;
i cant being like this` if don't mean please don't do !
wait its the sucks things i've ever know !!
hopeless ..

what can i do ? - corrs

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

Love me..

i'm tired fallin in love

nothing ~
cinta itu BUTAAAAAAA
ngomong ngomong butaa inget manda (Akakakaa)
anyway yaah im tired always been hurt and hurt
ahhhhhhh, such like tasya said ~
ohh, godddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd .
how can be like this ?!
like fell nothing .
tapii emang emang cinta itu grr :D
hahhaha, susa kalo lagii senneeng senenng bangett giliran sakit sedikit ajaa.
rasannya uda kayak DUNIA HANCUR .
hahhahaha, lebay yahh kadang kadang gua :P
nothing nothing lahh ,
mungkin gua cuma kecapeann belajarr jadii terlalu banyak mikir !
moga moga ulangan gua bagus bagus ! :D

new new things things ~

ahahhaha, natasyaa akiko Y. have her officialy blog
you can check this out! http://natasya-akiko-yukimachi.blogspot.com/
hahhahahaha, and about this things all singapore she's sooooooo excited ;)
i dont know why ? but she look very happy
and about many new things aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
exam exam examm T.T
im really really hatehatehate exam ..
i need to study for sunday exam godddddddddddddd.
ok its enough and for all lovers in world, dont be sad if you broken with someone special in your heart !!
you can find a new one ;)
HAHAHAX im readdy to study !!

love :)

anyway, cinta itu emang enngak bisa dipakasain .
cinta juga enngak boleh jadi pelarian, putus sama si A ehh takut kalah gengsi pacaran sama si B .
kalo cinta dimulai dari kasih sayang putusnya juga harus baebae .
kalo dulu bisa jadi temen kenapa sekarang enngak ?
we can to be friends !
emang cinta itu banyak berkorban kalo elo belom bisa ngalahin ego lo, mendingan gk usa pacaran !
itu cuma ngebuat orang yang jadi pasangan elo sakit ati !
cinta itu berbagi , cinta itu jujur
cinta itu ngebagi apapun yang kita dapet, kita alamin
cinta itu jujur, cinta suka elo apa adanya !
emang cinta itu enngak selalu bahagia, pasti ada saat saat kritis dimana kita bimbang
but if you really loved her\him. why not you pretend it until end ??
cuma baru ketauan guru aja putus ? itu namanya cinta ??
baruu dibilangin cowo lo jelek aja langsung diputusin ?
gengsi itu enngak selamannya exist !!
yang selamanya exist itu jujur !!
kalo emang udah enngak suka dari awal just say it .
gk perlu enngak enak " an .
dari pada itu orang mengira elo ngasih harapan ke dia, its more so hurt !
kalo sayang enngak gampang ngomong kata putus !
kata kata putus itu enngak bole terucap segampang ituuu .
kalo emng gampang mau bilang putus ya gk usah jadian lah sekalian !!
dkit" putus dikit" putus , what you think girl ?
kalo emang elo gk suka apa yang dia lakuin ato sesuatu gampang kan lo tinggal ngomong!
and ladies !! cowo enngak cuma satu didunia , its a milion boy there !!!
dan kalo emang uda enngak bisa dipertahanin we can say it walaupun tetep sakit tapi kita bisa ngomong secara baik baik !
enngak langsung putus sebelah tangan, enggak kasih kabar berhari hari .
its not a right way !!
dan enngak perlu nyakitin dia lebih dalem lagi .
just say you cant be together again .
anyway, ternyata gua juga baru sadar enngak ada cowo yang enngak ngeliat fisik seseorang cewe .
ya emang enngak bisa dipungkirin sii kalo emang yang pertama kali dliat itu fisik !
but i still wait that "boy" who didnt see someone as a physic come to me !!
i trust masih ada cowo kek gitu di dunia ini !
dan bagi yang lagi sakit hati, we need to wake up !
maybe god mean something about what we have passed it !! ;)

JAVA trip !! ;D part 1

i forget tell about my java trip there was a BIG fun !! HAHAH
yaa, i went there with zsazsa without my parents because my dad sick ;(
in the first, friday evening i go to zsa" house then have a night there
then, in theee morniingg so early morning i went to TEGAL ! ahahha
just 5 hours by car ~
i arrived there in 11.30 hahah
then arrived to hotel take rest in a few hour ;D
after that get lunch - sate kambing ! HAHHA
and then get a party in the night !!
AHHAHAHA ;D

i feel sick and disapointed ;(

yes of course im jealous ~
but its still normal, they my friends and they do like that to me .
but god fair i have good friends now .
natasya akiko yukimachi . gabriela gracia . verena tanzil
both of them make me happy everytime :)
anyway my body now so weak, too easy get sick or headache .
wake earlier in the morning, hahhaha and go to school .
same like another day not different so-so laa .
and then got english course,
i just realize that FAMILY its mean all than anything .
just they that the last place we can go when a whole world judge us !
just they that we can shared anything without thinking twice !
ya just they and my beloved friends ♥
that make my day brighter and brighter day to day ;)
yaaaaaaa, i hope i will not sick laa.
i dont want to sick this time !
i want to get a good score in my exam to make my dad proud of me ~
yaa, about math again i need to hard work .
anyway i accept in SHS notre dame :)
and i very sure want to spend my teenager life there with tasya !
i hope tomorrow will be better than today ! ;)