e.n.o.u.g.h

so i flashback to my past life ~
ever i do some bad things ? (yes a lot)
ever i think to make some one in trouble cause me ? ( ya ever )
i dont know just now im like stuck into this bored routine ~
student council . english course . keyboard course .
and i want to take some mandarin course .
am i not lucky ? i have anything that i want now.
best friends. perfect score . good family . good posisition .
so, why i still fell that i dont want this all ?
sometime i think about my future ?
are bright future its can be take just to be nice people ?
im bored . im tired . i cant take this anymore ~
i think this few day i think to much ~
im tired to be nice people ? cause i still can find my happy way ?
can i be some bad girl just for one day ?
no i cant cause just to make one's false its can broke all that i build .
my study . my friend .
is it that i will be alone when i do bad things ?
as it somebody tell me ?
but can i take my fredom ?
can i reach my happy way ?
i have dream . a perfect dream .
can i get it ?
are that dream its just can be dream in my mind ?
as it its was so imposible ?
so, if its was impossible ? why now im still work hard for my future ?
no medicine will heal me again . i think im in stress out.
im stuck !
can anyone just get me out of this ?
so, what i need to do ?
still be like this ? like robot ?
im, feel better if my friend beside me but thats not make me comfort ?
i now , im lucky ?
but , ahh nothing nothing that i want to say it again ~
should i do this last way to make me comfort?
in the first time i think busying my life its will make my life better .
but its just make all this more worst .
i work hard , yes i am .
but why i cant still enough ?
me , i need to do something that can make and change my mood .

i think ..
i need some refreshing .
its enough ? uhhhh ...
so. this is what i think today .
hope get better soon .