the last day of 2009

what a great day ;p HAHAHHA.
tahun ini banyak banget kejadian yang ngebuat gua seneng, sedih, campur" dehh ;)
rencannya tahun baru ini gua mau BBQ am zsa", ryan, andi , steven dkk .
bersama tante" dan om" guaaa nungguin old and new (:
hope everythings will be better tonight.
beberapa hari ini banyak banget kejadian yang uda terjadi dalam hidup gua .
some of them change my opinion to let it go,
perlu banyak yang gua bantuin, gw posting lagi tahun depan *wkakaka*



bye 2009 welcome 2010 ;p :
if you doesn't have enough time to fix all bad things you already done this year it's okay, because you have a lot time to make everything better next year *happy new year* ;D

life :D

gua baru sadar ada satu hal yang dibangun seseorang itu susah payah,
tapi dengan beberapa perbuatan dan perkataan kecil yang salah .
bisa menghancurkan semua itu, lo mau tau itu apa ? "kepercayaan"
lo bangun itu susah payah, lo need to be honest and nice to build it
but in one little lied you can destroyed all that .
all, that .
one thing again, " hope "
kita, bangun harapan itu dengan banyak perasaan khawatir .
tapi, dengan berbagai alasan tiba" harapan hancur, and make us more afraid to hoping again.
kepercayaan dan harapan itu hampir mirip dan berhubungan
dibangun dengan susah payah, tapi bisa hancur dengan berbagai hal kecil.
kalo kita udah gk pernah dikasih kepercayaan itu lagi, kita gk bakal berani berharap lagi.
kadang" gua mikir sebenernya kalo kita sampae gk berani berharap lagi berarti kita,
sampe pada titik yang gk bakal maju lagi.
karena sampe kapanpun yang kita butuh itu harapan, karena apapun hasilnya berani berharap itu intinya .
karena berani berharap itu tindakan yang harus kita pikir" berulang ulang kali.
because, all type of human don't want to get fall in the same mistake again.


sometimes, think about life it's the most complicated things ever :)

take it or leave it !

HAHAHHA, today not a good day .
but better laa, wanna go to church this evening .
hope there's some miracle happened, :)
still want to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2 haha
maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow hahax


a.l ; you make it the day more worst huh

jangan kau lepas - alexa

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh..
Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh..
Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi
[Reff:]
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ho..ho..ho..ho..

n.a ; the best song ever :)

christmas day- 10.46 AM

hey love, kalo gua bisa ketemu elo uda gua bunuh gua cincang" WKAKAKAK
me? am i in love ? hahaha
maybe, should i maintain this feel or just eliminate until nothing again ?
ckckck, wrong boy again and again
tapi kata gaby ; " experience is the best teacher "
iya kali yaa, if i want get the best of the best i need to pass this all :D
hahhaa, kalo gua bisa i want i can read your mind .
mind reader wannaabee wkakakak ;p
ckckck, this christmas day what i should hope ?
hoping? should i ? hahha
maybe like what i ussualy said "seberjalannya waktu aja :D"
hahhaha, ribet banget akhir" ini gua yaa hahahha
mau liburan liburan liburannnnn
mau ke puncak tapi gk tahan MACETNYA itu lohhhhh ckckck
new yearr ada yang punya rencanaa gua ikutt dong dong dong :D

christmas day

here i am with a box of ice cream sit in front of my computer
waiting some miracle on chrismas day ♥
waakakkaka, iya tdak mengerjakan apapun sumpaaa parah parah wkakka
kemarenn gua pergi ke gereja nahh pas misa ada anak 3 orang (tauu dahh anak siapa ;p)
berissiikk banget larii sana larii siniii hahhaha
ehh tiba" mereka melihat ke arah tempat air suci dan mereka mendekat
anak 1 ; ihh airr (kek gk perna liat aer aja ==" )
anak 2 ; ihhhh jangan" kata mamaku gk bole gk bole ( sambil mundur" )
anak 3 ; aihhh, dingin aernya hahaha (dikudek" dahh tuh aer sucii)
beberapa mata orang tua yang duduk didepan melihat kejadia itu tapi gk ngapa" in
anak 1 ; oh iyaa (sambil terus dikudek" )
anak 3 ; jangan jangan kata mamaku gk bolehh
dengan pendirian nya yang kuat akhirnya dia pergi ninggalin kedua temennya yang lagi asik" nya kudek" air suci =.=

ckckkc, ternyata coba lu liat anak kecil aja pendirian nya kuat kalo kata mamanya gk bole dia pecaya banget sama mamanya .
boro" gua wkakaka, nyokap gua bilang A pasti gua bilang B hahahha
god give me a lot of gift this year :D
i hope next year will more fun ♥

christmas gift :D

okey, i can control my emotion now :D
i thought what i thinking about life is not "fair" its wrong .
i can breath until now, i have a complete family :)
i have a good friends, ohhh all that i have is from YOU .
iya, semua dari tuhan dan gua gk bersyukur .
tuhan enngak perna kasih cobaan melebihi kekuatan anak" nya ( i believe that )
this chrismas just a little messy then last chrismas and i complain like my whole life is crash by something bad .
thanks god for " everything you give to me "
i love all them , my family,friends thats all make me complete :)

a.l ;
HAHAHAHAH, whatever he do i trying not to much care :D

life is never "fair" !

iya hidup enngak perna adil , huaaaaaaaaaa
tepar gini, banyak pikiran liburan macam apa ini ? mending gk usa ad libur aj sekaliannnnnnnn nyesel ada libur nyesel, kalo liburan gua dihabiskan buat mikirin orang yang ergghh, buat mikirin nilai gua yang tiba" anjlok . SUMPEK GUA ! depresi !!
semua ini liburan yang palinggggggggggg menyebalkan ever !!
aaaaa, ditambah ujian mikirin nyokap, bokap APA GK ADA YA yang laen yang bisa gua pikirin yang membuat gau senang dan bahagia ?! wth banget si ?? kenapa ada orang yang well, gua gk tau tapi i can be like that ? but in my life NEVER ever be same like that happy sucks ! yes, of course sucks and yucks !! aarrrgghhhhhhhh
GUA BUTUH BUKU ! NOVEL APA AJA DEH !!
tapi gua, gua gk punya dan sekarang depresi marah" gk jelas !!
GUA BUTUH PERGI, PERGI YANG JAUH DARI RUTINITAS GUA PERGII YANG JAUH DARI ORANG" YANG NGEBUAT GUA STRESS`
pergiiii, dari jakarta !!!
belom lagi masala tugas ada tugas b.indonesia gua yang belom selese
tugas trip BANDARA YANG YUCKS !! UJIAN NEGARA !!
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, ya sepertinya hidup gua tahun ini penuh dengan cobaan .
i just found a one miracle, yes i have a perfect friends .
natasya akiko yukimachi, gabriela gracia , verena tanzil
but DURING THE HOLIDAY i cant often see them !!
HOW CAN ?! MY SUCKS LIFE IM IN A HIGH LEVEL OF DEPRESION NOW !
kalo lu mau tau apa yang mau gua lakuin sekarang ; gua mau gua bakar semua rumah mall , kantor pemerintahan gua injek" semua orang yang ganggu jalan guaaaaaaaaa .
gua berubah jadi besar dan tak terkalahkan ! thats done !!
gua, keliling duniaaaa sendirian gk ada yang bisa berentiin gua , kadang" gua berfikir imajinasi gua berlebihan but !! god hell, gua butuh sesuatu aja i HOPE THERE'S A MIRACLE HAPPEN IN MY LIFE THIS CHRISTMAS !
but, nothing yang gua dapet HIDUP GUA MALAH TAMBAH HANCUR BERANTAKAN !!
mungkin sebagian karena salah gua, gua uda jarang berdoa mungking kata" nyokap gua bener gua uda jauhh dari TUHAN.
gua menyesali itu sangat sangat menyesal ;((
DEAR GOD, CAN YOU FORGIVE WHAT I ALREADY DONE ? and help me make this life more easy?
hm, make like old time .
i miss that moment, no mad no cry just laugh and a smile .
i miss my old holiday even though ending with some cry, but its a beautiful gift .
i love your gift last holiday to me god.
want you give me a gift this holiday ?
i try to fixed this condition, injured my self but i can't do that without a power of you god .
i need your help T.T

AVATAR ! :D

gilaaaaaaa, keren banget ituu film ahahahhaah`
lebih keren dari 2012 jauh jauh jauhhh HAHAHAHAHAH
sangat" inmajinatiff bangett semuannya ;)
yesterday, with zsa" come to purimall to met tasya and eko .
walking arround the mall wait eko then watched film goddd` it was so great !
the story is unpredicteble ! sooo great !!
u need to watch !! must !!! HAHAHH

so-so life ;)

HAHHAA, okay i already get my report from school and i get a sixth rank ! thanks for god sake ! ;)
and then spend a 3 first day in my holiday at zsa" house .
so, i came home now!
then get appointment with zsa",tasya and eko to watch avatarr`
okey at all i thought it was a good film ! i hope too :)

huahhhhhh, hope tomorrow will be a perfect day ! ♥

yesterday, 12-12-09

iyaa, hari selesai ujian ! yey HAHAHH
selesai ujiannn ke apart tasyaa dluuuuu, ngongkow" akaka
abis ituu jalan" ke puriiii ketawa" gk jelass hooho
truss ketemu eko, nonton dehh .
selese malemmmm, ckck hahahaa.
abis ituuu pulanggg badann guaaaaaa aa==" sakitt ! rada" angett dikit lahh`
moga" besok ke BANDARA bisa lebihh menghibur ! ahhahah (;

a.L ;
i cant being like this` if don't mean please don't do !
wait its the sucks things i've ever know !!
hopeless ..

what can i do ? - corrs

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

Love me..

i'm tired fallin in love

nothing ~
cinta itu BUTAAAAAAA
ngomong ngomong butaa inget manda (Akakakaa)
anyway yaah im tired always been hurt and hurt
ahhhhhhh, such like tasya said ~
ohh, godddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd .
how can be like this ?!
like fell nothing .
tapii emang emang cinta itu grr :D
hahhaha, susa kalo lagii senneeng senenng bangett giliran sakit sedikit ajaa.
rasannya uda kayak DUNIA HANCUR .
hahhahaha, lebay yahh kadang kadang gua :P
nothing nothing lahh ,
mungkin gua cuma kecapeann belajarr jadii terlalu banyak mikir !
moga moga ulangan gua bagus bagus ! :D

new new things things ~

ahahhaha, natasyaa akiko Y. have her officialy blog
you can check this out! http://natasya-akiko-yukimachi.blogspot.com/
hahhahahaha, and about this things all singapore she's sooooooo excited ;)
i dont know why ? but she look very happy
and about many new things aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
exam exam examm T.T
im really really hatehatehate exam ..
i need to study for sunday exam godddddddddddddd.
ok its enough and for all lovers in world, dont be sad if you broken with someone special in your heart !!
you can find a new one ;)
HAHAHAX im readdy to study !!

love :)

anyway, cinta itu emang enngak bisa dipakasain .
cinta juga enngak boleh jadi pelarian, putus sama si A ehh takut kalah gengsi pacaran sama si B .
kalo cinta dimulai dari kasih sayang putusnya juga harus baebae .
kalo dulu bisa jadi temen kenapa sekarang enngak ?
we can to be friends !
emang cinta itu banyak berkorban kalo elo belom bisa ngalahin ego lo, mendingan gk usa pacaran !
itu cuma ngebuat orang yang jadi pasangan elo sakit ati !
cinta itu berbagi , cinta itu jujur
cinta itu ngebagi apapun yang kita dapet, kita alamin
cinta itu jujur, cinta suka elo apa adanya !
emang cinta itu enngak selalu bahagia, pasti ada saat saat kritis dimana kita bimbang
but if you really loved her\him. why not you pretend it until end ??
cuma baru ketauan guru aja putus ? itu namanya cinta ??
baruu dibilangin cowo lo jelek aja langsung diputusin ?
gengsi itu enngak selamannya exist !!
yang selamanya exist itu jujur !!
kalo emang udah enngak suka dari awal just say it .
gk perlu enngak enak " an .
dari pada itu orang mengira elo ngasih harapan ke dia, its more so hurt !
kalo sayang enngak gampang ngomong kata putus !
kata kata putus itu enngak bole terucap segampang ituuu .
kalo emng gampang mau bilang putus ya gk usah jadian lah sekalian !!
dkit" putus dikit" putus , what you think girl ?
kalo emang elo gk suka apa yang dia lakuin ato sesuatu gampang kan lo tinggal ngomong!
and ladies !! cowo enngak cuma satu didunia , its a milion boy there !!!
dan kalo emang uda enngak bisa dipertahanin we can say it walaupun tetep sakit tapi kita bisa ngomong secara baik baik !
enngak langsung putus sebelah tangan, enggak kasih kabar berhari hari .
its not a right way !!
dan enngak perlu nyakitin dia lebih dalem lagi .
just say you cant be together again .
anyway, ternyata gua juga baru sadar enngak ada cowo yang enngak ngeliat fisik seseorang cewe .
ya emang enngak bisa dipungkirin sii kalo emang yang pertama kali dliat itu fisik !
but i still wait that "boy" who didnt see someone as a physic come to me !!
i trust masih ada cowo kek gitu di dunia ini !
dan bagi yang lagi sakit hati, we need to wake up !
maybe god mean something about what we have passed it !! ;)

JAVA trip !! ;D part 1

i forget tell about my java trip there was a BIG fun !! HAHAH
yaa, i went there with zsazsa without my parents because my dad sick ;(
in the first, friday evening i go to zsa" house then have a night there
then, in theee morniingg so early morning i went to TEGAL ! ahahha
just 5 hours by car ~
i arrived there in 11.30 hahah
then arrived to hotel take rest in a few hour ;D
after that get lunch - sate kambing ! HAHHA
and then get a party in the night !!
AHHAHAHA ;D

i feel sick and disapointed ;(

yes of course im jealous ~
but its still normal, they my friends and they do like that to me .
but god fair i have good friends now .
natasya akiko yukimachi . gabriela gracia . verena tanzil
both of them make me happy everytime :)
anyway my body now so weak, too easy get sick or headache .
wake earlier in the morning, hahhaha and go to school .
same like another day not different so-so laa .
and then got english course,
i just realize that FAMILY its mean all than anything .
just they that the last place we can go when a whole world judge us !
just they that we can shared anything without thinking twice !
ya just they and my beloved friends ♥
that make my day brighter and brighter day to day ;)
yaaaaaaa, i hope i will not sick laa.
i dont want to sick this time !
i want to get a good score in my exam to make my dad proud of me ~
yaa, about math again i need to hard work .
anyway i accept in SHS notre dame :)
and i very sure want to spend my teenager life there with tasya !
i hope tomorrow will be better than today ! ;)

holiday come in ! :D

heyahhh, hahaha holiday come in :)
today, is friday and a national free day in here ..
hahah, so i wannaa spend holiday to javaaaaaa
i miss javaa, so many kind of food :]
everything would be can there, hahahaha
but yesterday is the bad day worst ever after !
after english course, i come back home by myself .
because mommy and dad of course my brother, need to do their things !
you know this is the worst story ! :
1. wait a bus so long time
2. almost want to hit by car while i crossing the way
3. when i get in to the bus i get BUMP ! its sooooooo harddddd ;( !!
4. get headache after that ! huh

okay it was yesterday but today will be so fun !
my grandma come today, hahahhaha
and then tomorrow i will go to java !
hahhahahha :]]
hope tml be better ;D

naughty girl time out ! :P

ahahahhahaa, i dont know where got start ..
really today will be a day that i will remember until i have a grandchild :)
ya, already sure im accept in SHS notre dame .
and the canteen make me sooooo great and comfortable.
this morning wake like ussualy so-so, after arrived sch
first get bad in physics ahhaa ( get remedial next week laa ~ haha )
after that canceled the economic test :P
then, have a good score in plkj ~
im sure i can in technology test today then i truant in pm work !
hahhaa, im not meant to truant but i already buy a ticket and it was 1.15
ohhh goodddd ~
i will finished the pm work at 4.00 maybe so i decide to truant !
ahahahhaha, and see the movie but at least i feel guilty now ~
maybe because i lied ..
really the first i really forget today i got pm work !
im not sure already tell my brother to pick up me at 4.00 .
hahha, but really sometimes i need to make fun with this, we need to be naughty one time!
really feel so fresh now ! but still guilty ..
hahha, but i will remember this forever :)
tasyaaaaaaaa, thanks for today i have a lot fun ! :D

its raining all day ;D

yeaaa, from a cloudy morning until now a cloudy night ~
i can't count how many times raining here .
aahaha, i like it it wass moree cold :)
so, i thought i need to do some diet, because of this sucks weight .
i need down more 5 kgs maybe or just 3 kgs hahah
at least i need to drowning this weight.
or i will like old time >< hahha
have to do science HW i thought before i try to answer it, i give up akakka xP
yayaya, tml will be better :)

movie.movie ;)

just already watched 2012 ~
ohh godd, i scared look that ;(
i know you have a bright plane for us
i believe in you jesus ;)
what you said its was a golden ways for us
two words for 2012 film " great movie " u need to watch this ;)

boku wa kuma - utada hikaru ♥♥

In Romaji:

boku wa kuma kuma kuma kuma
kuruma ja naiyo kuma kuma kuma
arukenaikedo odoreruyo
shaberenaikedo utaeruyo
boku wa kuma kuma kuma kuma

boku wa kuma kuma kuma kuma
kenka wa yadayo kuma kuma kuma
raibaru wa ebi-furai dayo
zense wa kitto chocolate
boku wa kuma kuma kuma kuma

Bonjour! Je m’appelle Kuma. Comment ça va?

boku wa kuma kuma kuma kuma
fuyu wa nemuiyo kuma kuma kuma
yoru wa “oyasumi, makura-san”
asa wa “ohayou, makura-san”

boku wa kuma kuma kuma kuma
yoru wa “oyasumi, makura-san”
asa wa “ohayou, makura-san”
boku wa kuma kuku kuma

mama kuma kuma

In Kanji:

ぼくはくま 日本語：
ぼくはくま　くま　くま　くま
車じゃないよ　くま　くま　くま
歩けないけど踊れるよ
しゃべれないけど歌えるよ
ぼくはくま　くま　くま　くま

ぼくはくま　くま　くま　くま
けんかはやだよ　くま　くま　くま
ライバルはエビフライだよ
ゼンセはきっとチョコレート
ぼくはくま　くま　くま　くま

Bonjour! Je m’appelle Kuma. Comment ça va?

ぼくはくま　くま　くま　くま
ふゆは眠いよ　くま　くま　くま
夜は「おやすみ、まくらさん」
朝は「おはよう、まくらさん」

ぼくはくま　くま　くま　くま
夜は「おやすみ、まくらさん」
朝は「おはよう、まくらさん」
ぼくはくま　九九　くま

ママ　くま　くま

In English :

I am bear, bear, bear, bear
I am telling you I am not a car, bear, bear, bear
I can`t walk, but I can dance
I can`t talk, but I can sing

I am a bear, bear, bear bear
I am a bear, bear, bear, bear
I am telling you that fighting is bad, bear, bear, bear

My rival is fried shrimp
In my past life, I was surely chocolate
I am a bear, bear, bear, bear

Bonjour! Je m’appelle Kuma. Comment ça va?

I am a bear, bear, bear, bear
Sleepy in winter, bear, bear, bear
At night, goodnight Mr. Pillow
In the morning, goodmorning Mr. Pillow

I am bear, bear, bear, bear
At night, goodnight Mr. Pillow
In the morning, goodmorning Mr. Pillow
I am bear times bear

Mama, bear, bear

you can download here ;D
http://www.4shared.com/get/31957326/d22911cd/Utada_Hikaru_-_Boku_wa_Kuma.html

bad day ~

dont know why? im in bad mood :(
just mad,mad,mad and mad .
cant wait someone, and fell so sleppy ~
maybe i need to concentration with my sch (ato otak gua ini uda kepanasan ?? )
huaaaaaaa, my big national test in march look like not so far agaaiiinnnn ><
how can ? T.T
gooddddddddd, to much thinks i have to do .
i need someone to talk and share my story T.T
someone that dont know me personaly, someone stranger (ahahahaha)
ugghh, no one have time, they busy with they things ~
hhahaa, sometime i think im selfish ;D
but, ya hope tml will better laa :)


kumaa ♥♥♥

fake friendship

i dont know , i just now realize that their friendship its all " fake "
they can't take control of us, they think who is they ??
heyy, i'm your friends.
and i ever go in your world, you is a loser ~
if u does'nt like someone just say it .
dont, being back stabber , you smile in front of someone that you dont like, like youre not mad with them ?
you are all fake .
you know friends isnt like that , friends is full with understanding and honesty
full of laugh ~
lucky i found them now .
that i really like them , i loved them ..

rain rain rain ♥

yayaa todayyyyy raiinnn so longgg hereeeee ;D
when i want to go to english lesson until night .
coldd, ya i prefer cold than so hootttt mannnn
wish me luck with tomoroowwww ..
UPACARAAAA IM COMING ;)

headache ;(

i feel not good today ~
arrived at sch in the morning then get headache @.@
but i need to do my pkn test and i thought i can ;D
and today its heroes days in indonesiaaa omgggg ~
i forget hahahaha
hey yaaa, bad bad bad @.@
i think i gonna get sick :(
to many i want to do today
i hope tml will be better ..

looking for a better day ♥

today. akakakka
i dont know what i would got in bio :(
ahahahhaa, but really i do my math test today and just cant one number .
im not study math yesterday but i think i can :)
ahhahahaha, i dont think so today will be a good day but i hope :)
nothin much happened today ..
but i have a truck of my excercise ~
ohh myyyy gooodddddd ><
ahhahahha, wanna do it post again tml :)

sunday, 8-10-09

and
i addicted to sky and teddy this couple of weeks :)
i like my new called "kuma" its mean teddy in japanesse language
hahha, and sky its like i can turn around this world.
today hang out with my lovely " nephew" ahahhahahaha
zsa" , let me introduce her hahah
she is a 11 years old girls, chatter , to much wanted but i happy :)
tomorrow biology test , i am used to be studying now but im not .
hahahahhahahaaa :)

i wanna be a sunflower :)

ya, sunflower i dont know sure why i like it but i like it ♥
it was strong and never see back .
they always see to the sun .

always always and always .
ya i try to never think about the past .
what its already happened never can happened again .
ya, i need to more strong :)
strong strong and more strong everyday .
i dont need to worried about tml, i just need to thinking what i gone do today

i just need to accept what its already happened with smile :)

miss my holiday~

yaaa, so miss my holidaaayyyy ~
so much time freee ==
this week and this month so busy .
go out , study , thinking about my final exam next year its enough make me headache
hahahahhaa, ya last holiday i just in home and chatting with my friend from singapore all day (ALVINNN long time no chat with youuu how are youu ?? missing you LOL hahha )
to much good moment in holiday, hahah
and today i need to thinking about my high school `
where i need to go ?
still in notre dame ? or went to sang timur ?
omg, i need to thinking about this seriously haha
but i more interested to test in 78 high school like what my mom said
long time no post so busy`
hahaha, my hair now goin so long long ahahha

look like i will take care this hair perfect until they grow up so long (like tasya hairrr ahahhaa )
yaa, this saturday will be a good week end will go out with tasya .
watched movie, play , laughh ahhh miss so miss that moment ~
and i need to get a good score in my last year in junior high school .
ya like before, but i dont want to be 3 grade again in class i want 1 !!!
ahahah, i need study studyy studyyy ahahaha .
i hope my decision to take my way now its not a big mistakee :)
hope tml will be better :))

i ♥ me

yaa i ♥ being me anyway , so much problem this day,

big mess with veroo .
mm, at least my hair gone long hey yaaa hahahahha
and i like it .
cant wait my hair gone long long long hahahaha :) ♥ ♥

b.n.k.a.t.k.e :)

enngak tau apa" it lebihh baikk daripada tauu segaalannya .
tauu semuannya .
tauu kapan lo bakal is dead !
tauu lo bakal kalah , tau lo bakal jatoh .

atoo sampe hal hal yang bagus tau kapan lo menang !
semua it enngak baikk enngak pada waktunyaa .

walaupunn gua enngak menyangkal kalo "meramal" it memang bikin orang penasarann.
( ==aa gua ngmg yg ennga penting )
back to the problem .
like u all know, gua tauu semua suka cerita ke gua ( atau gua yang emang pengen tauu segalannya == " )
gua tauu sesuatu yang seharusnnya enngak lu tauu .
misal: lo punya temen namannya si A ehh , si A cerita ke elo ttg masala dia mengenaii si B . eh tiba" si B juga cerita ttg masalahh dia sama si A . ia kalo gua bisa bikin mereka baean kalo enngak? malahh it jadii pikirann buatt gua so, buat ello para pendengar yang baikk .
nurut gua sii, jangan terlalu banyak berfikir !! guaa rasa semua it hanya perasaan kitaaa .

tapiii aa== , tapii gua enngak bisa berpura pura enngak tauu apa" kan ?
ttg semua yg gua tauuuuuuu .
ahhhhhh, gua rasa ver. gua enngak punya bakat di bidang psichology .

ahh, enough ==
direct speech ? reported specch ? aaaaa==" somebody help meeee :(


messages :
better not know anything than know everything :)

=="

kenapa sii semua it haruuss selalu berhubungan dengan namannya cinta ?
hah ? emang cinta itu penting banget yaaa ?
kek nya enngak juga tuhh ?
dan teman ? apakah anda pantas menyebut diri anda teman ?
kalo anda enngak ad disaat teman anda lagi butuh .

dan, saya sudah cape dengan semua urusan dunia yang enngak penting ?
hah?!! cape gua cape semuannya .
sekolah, keluarga, teman, cinta ?
itu semua berkaitan dan terlalu complicated !!!

gua rasa hidup tanpa cinta it biisaaaa !!
enngak harus selalu ad cinta, kadang kalo kita ud masuk dalem kehidupan yang namannya cinta ituu "rumit"
terlaluu rumitt bahkann banyak juga yang terjerumus dalam kerumitan itu .
gua rasa gua uda dalam tahap strees yang sangat beratt !
entahh kenapa walaupun gua uda ketawa tapii, gua enngak brasa senang ?
masii banyakk yang perlu gua pikirinnn ?
hidup kaliann teman" kuuu jauhh lebih baikk !
jadii pliss deh jangan cuma gara" apapun lah yang tadii ud gua sebutinn .
menghambatt , enngak perlu berhentii ia .

dan satu lagii cewe engak perlu takut jadii prawan tua !
jadi suster? bukan pilihan yang buruk bukan ?
bersembunyi dalam kesalahan yang ditutup tutupi itu tidak membuat kita tau apa arti dunia !
tuhan, bahkan kita enngak tauu kapan pastinya kita akan meninggal ?
bukan, jadii berlakulahh seolah" enngak bakal ad harii esok maka semua akan berjalan lancar !
huh .

u get a wrong choice boy !!

i dont know just, im guess u will regret your decision bone head !
hmm, i know isnt not me that hurt,
but u didnt know how much she give to u !

mm, i think all boy just such a bone head!!!!
doesnt matter who is he and what he do for him life !
they its all just bone head !!
hey boy can u see the truly love ??
u know truly love isnt not jealous !!! not hurting ! and not selfish !!!!
u didnt need to find it ! they waiting u !!!
look it clear your side and u will find it !!!!!
is u all blind boy ?
hmmm, i think i not just guess boy !
im pretty sure that u in wrong way !!!
please realize it ? u didnt match with her !!
ahh, no one cant stop u now ~
just wanna say if one time u realize it that u wrong !
back to her ! and u will happy ..
she's wait u all the time , she's never complain !
until u tell her that u love another girl !
she didnt complain she's support u !
but i know she's just hurting herself .
ahh, friends thats not anything that i can do for u :(
just this !


messages today :

maybe the truly love will meet after a milion mistake before it !!

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

today hang out again with tasya .

hahaha, anyway get some quarell with jea :( .
hmm, tired day but its fun .
today go to purii mall againn, sometime i think im lucky have friends like u all :)
u all its know how to make me laugh again .

ahahhaha, today play NX again .
haihh, so tired but remember grace its just about the process .
haiya, today get something precious .

u know friends its precious things .

no one friend want to look they friends get hurt or something that can make pain .
they just want the best to u .

just see in the the other side, of people dont just see in they habbits .

if u can see in another way, they have a uniq side every people .
common , see your enemy dont just think about they habbit they have a positive side too .

same like u no one perfect .
u need to accept they habbits , and u will see an uniqe side of your friends try it .

sometime if u have some quarell with your friends,
maybe they not meant to do that to u .

or your friends have a strong reason do that to u .
dont blame it to the other . introspecsi your self .
common, dont be selfish .

dont just thinking about tyourself .
u need thinking about the other, not just u live in want this and that .

we all want !
cause we happy look u happy , so we take your way :)


msgs today :
friends just want to make their friends happy, so sometime we all do something bad to make u realize your mistake. we just want the best for u . we all yours friends,we all will always beside u, no one of we want to leave u . just now we do this all to make u be a better people . Trust me the trully friends its not every time in the same side with u , sometime we didnt have a same way cause we want The best for u . we all loved u friends :)

20 - 08 - 09 , 8:14:50

today early in the morning i wake up :)
i thinking today it was wednesday ,
ckckc, i think im to much thinking this few day .

hahaha, until can be like that ,

so i get out from my bed and lay in the sofa and watching tv ,

until 7.30 haha then take a bath and drying my hair .
today i go to school just to take a part in the student council meeting .

ahaha, u know the big 'day' its this monday hahah im cant mind it .

so much thing i need to do as a secretary in this event .

tired but make me fun :)
so, after that i meet tasya in backyard , she's in extraculiculer .

she's talent at basket ahha im proud it .
and after that go to tasya apart waiting her take a bath ,

than go to the mall , watching film
im watched " the proposal " it was a great film !!!
aahha, but if u didnt like a romantic film u will didnt like that xP

but i think orphan better than g.i joe ahhaha

i more like orphan than g.i joe :))
so, after watched film .

we go to some played station and play theree .

mm, do u know DDR ?

hahah, DDR its dance dance revolution mm, i think its a famous game in here :)
ahhaha, in the first i see that game i'm not interested in that .

its look like just a kindengarten game ,

ahaah, but today i try it with tasya !!
i think i didnt like that cause i cant play that .

ahahhaha, i try with tasya then i think i can :))

ahhahah, tasya can she's good at that game .
all so far. u know i think im never win in every game .

ahhaha, i didnt know its a unlucky me or i think its true !

so, in the real no one that u cant get it, its all about the process ~
anyway i think im just to selfish , never want to lose .

so, u didnt know until u try it :))


what i get today :
hahah, thats all just about the process , u will get everything if patient to wait it.

if u never try , so u will never know what the result :)

independent day :D

Independent day Competition :.

.:this is my tumpeng rice:.

u know in the 14 day it was special day here in my school we celebrate our independent day more fast than the other :))

it was many competition, but i take a part in cooking compttion :D
ya, i take that commpettin cause the time, its the first compttion start .

( i take it cause i need to take a sliding ball commttion but im not the player im the judge ! xP )
so, we decide one day befo

re the 'day' .
and u know we go to swalayan, after back school we still use uniform .

aahahah , what so fun !

in the morning after the ceremony word from the headmaster i run

as i can go to in the 1st floor to meet my friends there.

i see, brandon, gaby,verena and michele was there they just take out the vegetables from the plasctic .

hahah, i help them take out a

nd then start to make it .

we decide to bring all the food its already cooked .

haha, i and all my friends take some 45 mnt to make it be like that ,

i make it so serious lol
ahahhaha, then u know we win !!

we win but not the 1st hahah we the 3rd
but its okay we still winn . 9c still

winn :))
hahahahhaha, u know if i look at th

at picture it was so delicious !!
and in after my teacher judge the food .

we eat it , together !!
and u know the taste its more delicious than the pcture lol ;p

-this is me with my tumpeng rice-

hahhaha, i think i find my new hobby "cooked" :)

18 - 08 - 09 , 8:57:45

anyway i wannaa tell about today !
im so happy today , ahaha ( but nothing happened to me ) im just happy no reason :)
oh yeah, in the morning im wake and touch my face u feels some like so smooth
hahah, my face goin smooth .

and im not wake late . enough la, wake in 6.00 take a bath until 6.15 then get some breakfast then 6.30 go to school .

ahahahha :P .

so, in school not so boring its ok but today im so quiet , not to much talk with the other until vero come to my desk and says she can ! hahahh she can go with me at december hahah

so, i just need to plan what im goin to do in s'pore .

cant mind it cant mind !

hahahha :) , today daesy didnt go to school she says have fever and some stomachache,
wow its so fast , yesterday i'd still meet her but today she's sick ( hope u will get better daesy )
hahahha :)

mm, u know im sure about my lucky necklace , i think that really a lucky necklace u know , in my history life .

i will lost my important things in just 2 weeks but if i remembered this month its the third !

ahahhaha :) , i've ever lost it but that necklace always come back to me .

hhaa, after school i go back late , cause my mom late pick up me .
to wait her i play basketball with tasya in the warm evening like tht,

but i enjoyed it , it was fun ! hahah

actually . im not to much like basket ball .

ahahha, but today i enjoyed it more than ussualy :)

so, until my mom come and called me to go back .

so, i back than get some sleep so tired :)
at 4.45 goin to my english course ,,

i enjoyed it too ..

back to the love :
i think in my age now , we just need to take this love just like a game . didnt need cry cause its just a game :) , if u failed in this one game dont cry find another game ! dont be so serious cause its just hurting yourself, trust me just take as a game :D

b.m

sometime i get some like in so so bad mood.
not something happened to me just i think im in bad mood ..
u know i think its more happened to female than to male .
its up and down .
haih haih haih .
i just like already doin something bad .
i know thats its childish but i can sure tell u that i didnt like that .
u know i have feel to .
and i dont want to always admit .
i have my own decision , dont give coment please .
i have my life !
and u its a part i know u its important to me but can u more know me .
i dont like to be a loser .
sometime i want to win too
can u understand that, maybe when i write this my emotion its cant control
but trust me what i write in here its true that all its true !
im sorry if u didnt like what i say what i do but can u more respect me .
more a little bit more this is a friendship so can u tell me what u feel and i will tell u what i feel i think sometime my mom says its true .
i think being so close with someone its not good .
its some risk :
1. if she or he leave u u will feel like something its less in your life .
2. u know sometime being so close its make we comfort do something that we never thinking what the consequence when we did it , cause we think we close to them and doin something bad to them .

i think that 2 reason its can u proove it .
so we back to yesterday and the day before yesterday .
today its indonesia birthday so 'happy birthday Indonesia'
so, today just spent my time to hang out with my friends .
but its not going like what i thinking .
so different , im enough !
i mad to them if they wanna joke , can please not about me .
sometime i think im the ' problem ' like being so childish but u know please .
can u understand me more !
mmmm, i think enough for today ~

'hope tmr will be a better day'

LOVE :)

so, what u think about l.o.v.e ?
love sometime its blind ( i think its true )
love its can mean 2 different meaning .

- happy :P
u will feel happy when u get the right person the person that can give youe everything what u want to do, give time for u give surprise always thinking of u ? true right feel like u needed by love. hahaha, take and give its was love u take and u give it back just that when u feel that love . just being love in the way u are ~ its was everything 'the way u are' its enough .

- pain

so how about if someone u like didnt like u or someone u like prefer with another girl. no one girl perfect, or u cant say u love him cause some reason its was meaning of love too . its was the side of love in the different ways . trust me its was so sad and hurting .

i think no one boys that call playboy in this world , they just find the best of the best . they choose they look and that think what he want . i think if someone love me someday i will asked why u like me ? im not rich ? im not clever ? and not beutiful? what u think interested in me ?
and that boy need some strong reason to possible answer it .

ahahha, i dont need some hard reason to find my dream boy
its just can accept me the way i am . u no need to rich no need to handsome .
just loved me the way i am . its enough for me .
i will wait that boy, cause i didnt want to find it .
i trust that my destiny will give the best way for me .
cause find that boy just hurting yourself .

its so lucky when u loved someone that loved u too .
so keep it near u :) cause u need it :))

5.33 pm

today wait for my result , my keyboard result oh god please please :)
get me to graduate !!!
huaaaa ,
im worried im worried ><
so, we talk about tomorrow ~
tommorow its the 1 day before the 'day'

so, i think will be go back late, do everything tml .

hahah, today in the first started day will think something bad will happend .
i guess i guess but no one bad happened to me .
i think sometime feel its can wrong ~
aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh myy weighttttttttttt 48
noooooooooooooooooooooooo ~
what will i dooo ~
mmmmmmmmmmmm, i need to diet diet
diet quickly `
its will remember me about my child timeee ~

so so so fat ~
uhh, god its was embraasseed me .

fortunately, i have god mom :)) ( i love u mom :D )
and can back to the normal weight ~
bad bad bad , what i think its never wrong .

i get 67 in history ,
what a bad score but thanks to god im not in remedial way ~
huhhhhhh , hope will get betterr more beterr not better its MUST .
huhh, why my score get down so deep like that ?
huh , ....

ahh, need to take a bath to then get my result .

pray pray ahhh, good luck for me :)
bye, take care :))

today :)

today go to my english course like ussualy ,
but just already now i feel that im comfort there in the new place :)
i think i will go bored there never talk .
hahhaa :)
so, this few hours i just thinking about i never thinking ?
what high school i will choose ?
so, i think i still attend in notre dame
im just comfort, no need to make an imege an posisition respecting there

and full of ly old friends hahhah

like wanna turn the time and wanna go to that time
so, i just already realize that im just 14 but now im in junior high sch .

are its so young ?
ya maybe :)
hahahha i will graduate my high school in 18 years old
i think im a young graduate :)
ahahahahhahahha like a perfect started
so, i supposed to think about my final exam
final exam final exam final exam
u know im just attend not more than just some 6 month againnn
wowwww ~
so, maybe i need to not to often online, and bblogging maybe
but, uhhh i hope so that my final exam its not disapointed me
if i do what i need to do .

everyday just study study and study
but its more fun cause i study with my friends :)
so, i think its not get boring .

so good night , and bye :)

i dont wanna miss a thing :D

could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

4.55 pm

hahha :)
nothing hapeenedd today just more tired than ussualy i back to school .

u know about issue this 6 month ago . its about end of the world in the 2012
do u belived it ?
someone says that can prove what he said .

some like bad happend will get in 2012 .

but its still MAYBE no will change what god says .
god can handle all that he want to do with us .
hahahha ~
seems like my whole friends belived it .
oh ya i gett soo busyy cause my school wanna get 20 years annivversary day wow ~
its was a fantastic ~
ahhahahha :))
so many sports cup will be get .

hahhaha :) . get ussualy student life againn `
miss it so much , home work , teacher scream , a freak class .
ahahha i think my head get some wrong i miss school !!!
if i didnt wrong its will be om 24 august .

hohoohoo `

e.n.o.u.g.h

so i flashback to my past life ~
ever i do some bad things ? (yes a lot)
ever i think to make some one in trouble cause me ? ( ya ever )
i dont know just now im like stuck into this bored routine ~
student council . english course . keyboard course .
and i want to take some mandarin course .
am i not lucky ? i have anything that i want now.
best friends. perfect score . good family . good posisition .
so, why i still fell that i dont want this all ?
sometime i think about my future ?
are bright future its can be take just to be nice people ?
im bored . im tired . i cant take this anymore ~
i think this few day i think to much ~
im tired to be nice people ? cause i still can find my happy way ?
can i be some bad girl just for one day ?
no i cant cause just to make one's false its can broke all that i build .
my study . my friend .
is it that i will be alone when i do bad things ?
as it somebody tell me ?
but can i take my fredom ?
can i reach my happy way ?
i have dream . a perfect dream .
can i get it ?
are that dream its just can be dream in my mind ?
as it its was so imposible ?
so, if its was impossible ? why now im still work hard for my future ?
no medicine will heal me again . i think im in stress out.
im stuck !
can anyone just get me out of this ?
so, what i need to do ?
still be like this ? like robot ?
im, feel better if my friend beside me but thats not make me comfort ?
i now , im lucky ?
but , ahh nothing nothing that i want to say it again ~
should i do this last way to make me comfort?
in the first time i think busying my life its will make my life better .
but its just make all this more worst .
i work hard , yes i am .
but why i cant still enough ?
me , i need to do something that can make and change my mood .

i think ..
i need some refreshing .
its enough ? uhhhh ...
so. this is what i think today .
hope get better soon .

time to be crazyy ~

hahahha, tomorrow i almost cry cause my art book is lost .
but u know. i found my book at home, ahahahha ~

in sch i tell to my friend that i borrow that book :) sooryy friend maybe i have SMT
(Short memory term )
hahahahha ...
today no special day just a liitlee shocking something happendd ~
hahahah, i think u will prefer never to contact me againn `

hahahhaahha, better betterr noww :))
oh yaa, after take some proposal to pelita sch hahaha .
we (i tasya jea) go to eaatt some bakmie ~
hahahhahaha :)
so mannyy mannyy chili, until i get stomache ~
ahhahahahhahah :))
after that a little bit talking with evan and daruu.
then go back to jeaaa houssee , (my third housee) ahhaha
then there tasyaaaa been craaazzzyy thereee .
we laugh laugh and laugh .
i dont know why ? but if i always been in tasya side .
i alwaysss LAUGHHH hahahahhahaha :))
im happy today happy happy happy :))
hahahhahahah, like ahh canntt mind itt singaporeee .

ahahahhahahahahaa :))
so then i loved u my frienddss :))
hahah :D

time to be crazyy ~

...

im now here hopeless .
u know i just need your minute, u cant .
so why u say happy b'day to me ?
nothing will change. can i tell u the truth ?
no i cant, if that can u still please stay away from me ?
can u see that im broken every minute i talk to u ?

no u cant, u dont know me like i know u .
im here now, cant doing anything .
and now im perfectly guess " im not anyone SINCE in the FIRST time . IM JUST TO CONFIDENT "
ya i know that

but how come ? i cant . until now im still hope .
im not tired. i know im hurt . but why i come to be so patient .
are its call that waiting never after ?
i know i never ever forget u ?
but can somebody help me forget u ?
who am i ?
i know im not anyone , but can u just let your few minute for me ?
no, u cant . i know that .

u cant . but why i still hope ? i cant stop hope ?
am i will always just hurting myself ?
if that make u will be mine. i will do it .
but i cant i know u happy with her .
i, i what again i will do ?

to make this time will worse again ?
huh ?
i asked u ? but i will never get the answer .
i know. im just cant accept this in this few days ?

happyy dayyy :)

hahha, i know im just saying.

my synopsis not clear yesterday :)
hahahahha, just in the night take my new heels in my aunty house .
hhahaha, then it take so long time, so i have reason to not clear it my synopsis ~
a few days this, i like to blogging mmm ... i dont know why just, it was make me comfort ~
hahhahahahah :D
today im not wake up late :) hahaha, im wake at 05.45 its enough laahh ~
hahah, im wake and then take a bath, since so long time im not use a cold water(i ussualy use hot water but yesterday the gas its was empty :P ) , today i use that and i just already realize that JAKARTA now it was so cold in the morning dont asked me what happeened after i take a bath. as fast i take my jackeett, and told my nanny to make some hot tea .
hahahahhaha :))
then, i take my hairdryer and dry my hairr ~
hhaha, yesterday i cut a litle bit and its make a big diferrent :)

hahahahahha :)
i dont know im just happy today :)
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
" today, im still thinking of you. about our memories. "
i know i cant still thinking of you but i cant . how can i forget u. if ussualy i always thinking of u ?
just, huh tired tired
" today u still not realize , i dissapeared . no messages from u, huh maybe u say thanks to me cause i first leaved u "
hahhaha, talk to daesy about our plane go to singapore and our travel this december make me happy so happy ,
cant imagine i.daesy.tasya just three of that no parents no adults .
hhahahahahahaha., was so a great holiday :)
hope tomoroow will be a better day :))

Today 29/08/09

ahh, im wake up in the morning, i think today i will wake up early and not panic go to school .
but. i wake at 6.30 omygoddneess im wake no time no time i will late just tht i think tht time i go brush my tooth , take a bath .
take my book and "my sweettyy file" ,
but after i do all tht, it was 6.55 oh mii gooodd ~
as fast as i can i go to school ~
maybe god loved me , hahaha, im not late it was miracle ~
hahhaha :)
not to much i do today ,
no mood to do sport today, so im just hiding and disappeared from the hall ~
hohoho :P
ahhhhhhh, how was i do a great things today, my economy test today ahh, i guess it will be so bad bad bad :(
huahhhhhh, i know im not study to much but huaaaaaa .
ok its ok all my false im not study :)
hahha, today have a council discussion after school .
i think im so busy in this nineth grade `
so many excercise. research. homework
haih, but honest i like to be busy :)
im waiting for this saturdayyyyyyyy :))
ahahhaa, but today i need to finished my novel synopsis
ohmygod i just already forgot it ~
but, book book and full of story it was interesting ~
not matter how so many story in thats book
im already fallin love with themm hhahah
" why ya?everytime i remember of you, it was so something in my heart and its was sucks !"

hahha, i just wanna be think today is today and yesterday was memories. and tomorrow it was a mystery!!
i have so manyythings i want it, cause that i cant just stuck and not doing anything .
trust me i can leave u !
ya, like what ling says i must go on and just let it go this prob :)
just stuck in this situation and not doing anything it was not change anything :P
hahha, i will busying my life and than more easier for me to erase u !!
hahahha, now now i just wanna say " im happy for u :)) "
u know it was honest, from my deep heart ~
hahahhaha, tonight will finished my story so.
i need to go back studyyy ~
ahhahahahha . i hope tomorrow will be more nice dayy :)

i.love.this.day :) cause.i.can.make.u.just.for.my.memoriess :))

i still need u

i know thats all my false, but better be like this ..
better u with her, better i be like this if i just make mistake to u
disappeared , and not leave anything to u .
im lie if i didnt , broke my heart
better im broke my heart, if i just can make u confuse
ya im loser loser. i know im loser
but what can i do?
i trapped in the situation like this ?
i just can be a good friend in front of you. but i broke my own heart ,
broke , broke , broke again
but i think for what i be honest to u ?
i still cant do anything
if i say that i just dont mind if my nightmare come true ?
if u stay away from me ?
if u dont want to know me again ?
it was my nightmare i frigtened if i lose u
but in the end i still need to lose u :)

now this time i just hope to god that u can more more more better with her
" im not anyone since in the first time . im just to confident "
i think my decision now its was right perfect right
let u go its the perfect way two us
i know i still hope with u
but maybe this feel was wrong, maybe all its was just can be memories :)
i know, i more strong now its because u :))
just wanna say to u " im happy for u "



( hope u not forget my special day )

nothiing gonna change :)

If I had to live without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know
Theyll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I dont want to live without you.

Chorus 1
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Ill never ask for more than your love.

Chorus 2
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but nothings gonna change my
love for you.

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us like a guiding star
Ill be there for you if you should neeed me
You dont have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are.

So come with me and share this view
Ill help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I dont want to live without you.